I’m not sure if I can continue backbending.  I think I’m at the point where to get my backbend any tighter, I’m gonna have to start bending at my lower back, which I can’t do, because it hurts.  Or, this might just be a fluke day and I’m was kind of already tired before I started stretching.  I don’t know what to do.  I think I’m gonna try some less straining exercises like this one and try to get my foot/shin over my shoulder and see what happens.  I think I’ve come to the conclusion that I can’t do the chest stand stretch because it bends directly at my L5 which is where my back is ‘broken’.  I can feel that it is possible to bend my back higher but my neck isn’t flexible enough to hold that position for too long.  So I think I’m gonna stick with the non straining exercises for a while.

I feel like a Debbie Downer when I say this but really..I don’t feel like anything I really want in life ever goes my way.  I had to quit gymnastics because of my back injury, and now I might not be able to do this because of my back AGAIN.  What the fuck am I supposed to do sit in my rocking chair and knit all day.   Bye.