Gah!  I hate my body sometimes.  My back doesn’t hurt while I’m stretching, but if I sit for too long it hurts.  All day long.  After I was done stretching yesterday and was uploading/editting the video I was sitting on the couch for I duno, maybe an hour…and then my back hurt mostly the rest of the night.  Ridiculous!  I do slouch a lot…that’s probably why.  Or I sit really weird like I’ll have more weight on one side of my back because one leg is curled under me, I duno.  I guess I just need to sit in back-approved positions haha.

And my back has hurt today pretty much since I woke up :(   These are the kinds of things that make me question if my body can handle this.  I SO want to be able to bend!  It’s like one of the only things I REALLY want.  And I might not be able to.  Ugh!!  Hopefully it is just soreness because I didn’t really stretch for 3 days and then stretched yesterday…hopefully.  I need like a psychic healer to use their powers on me.  It’s funny…I’ll imagine my L5 in my head…putting tape around it..healing the broken pieces.  Imagining my osteoclasts/osteoblasts going to work; making new bone.  But nothing happens.  Maybe I just need a little faith?  Eh.  My mom’s bf is an orthopedic surgeon who believes people shouldn’t be ‘too flexible’ so I know he doesn’t support what I’m doing, especially with my back.  Most people I know don’t support it actually.  Screw it.  I really want a bowl of fruity pebbles right now but I’m not even hungry haha.  Maybe in a few hours…Time to relax.